Sunday, July 31, 2011


This post is going to be all over the place. 
I'm warning you now.

 ~I had my follow up appointment Friday to check for follicles.
I only had 1.
It was still measuring small. 
I go back Tuesday to see if it has grown.
I'm hoping another one will have popped up. 

~I was really upset Friday after my appointment, like, broke down sobbing on my way to work.
I have cried a lot this past week. I'm naturally pretty sensitive, but this is out of control.
I don't know if it's the stress of everything going on, or the effects of Clomid, but good grief.

 ~We have started packing and it still doesn't seem real.
I am so consumed with this cycle, the fact that in one month we are moving 
a few thousand miles away hasn't even really sunk in. 
I see boxes all over our apartment, and I still don't "get it"!

~Thursday Lily walked up and gave me a big hug and I just held her as long as she would let me.
I started crying. (odd!!!)
I only get two more weeks of big hugs and kisses.
This aspect of moving has hit me.
I can't believe I don't get to spend my day's with my favorite girls anymore. 

~When I bought my car last year it was because car seats wouldn't fit in the car I had.
I just assumed that when I took the girls' car seat's out it would be because 
we were having a baby and I would be putting their car seat in my car.
This clearly isn't the case.
And now the car I bought to accomodate car seats will be empty in the back.
I know it sounds stupid, but I just thought this car would always be full of kid's. 
Guess not.

~I want to get the girls a little something special before I leave.
I just have no idea what to get them.
They have every toy known to man! 
Any idea's?


  1. Is there are larger toy they can share? Or a pass to somewhere fun where they can go as a family? Small photo book of pictures of things you have done with them? Make a blanket for each girl? Um...out of ideas.

  2. Oh friend. I love you. You are just a big ball of so much love right now tears and all. I wish I could be there with you to cry, laugh and stuff our faces with cheesecake. I will come visit you in texas, who else will make fun of them crazy texans with you. LOL. For the girls what about one of those cute books from Hallmark, the ones where you can record your voice? I know its kinda cheesy but Madeline and Tommy LOVE them. and its meaning ful. Or you can get them a large 16X20 photo of you for there bedroom. lol. Love you friend...forever.

  3. The girls told me what they really really want is a picture of you holding them for their baby book. :)


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