Damn You Stress

Today was one of many RE appointments to see how the cycle was going. 

Each cycle my body seems to really take it's time,

slow and steady is what the nurse's love to call me. 

Today I finally had a follicle big enough, of course though I only have one.

I know one follicle is all I need, but I was really hoping with the increase in 

meds I would have at least 2 follicles. 

My nurse was a little surprised I only had 1 follicle as last month

I had 2 and all I was taking was Clomid. 

My response was "I was far less stressed last month".

She said that's probably why I only had one.

Awesome.

I've heard a million times how stress can effect infertility. 

I guess I didn't realize just how much of an effect it can make. 

I am TERRIBLE at staying calm.

I get worked up over the smallest, dumbest stuff. 

Not to mention last week I had a full on anxiety attack one night. 

I told Travis for the next 2 weeks I am checking out. 

I'm not dealing with anything. 

I need to stay as stress free as possible.

If only I could pause life around me for those two weeks. 

God, please grant me patience the next 16 days.