It's A Learning Process

Monday I went to my RE for my baseline appointment

so we could start cycle number 4.

How on earth I'm only on my 4th attempt this year blows my mind. 

I digress.

I had my sonogram and knew something was wrong.

My Dr always turns the screen away from you, which drive me insane,

and he never says a single word until he is done with the sonogram.

But he was spending an awful lot of time on my left ovary. 

Sure enough he told me I had two very large cysts on my left ovary.

Which means we will be sitting out another cycle.

I was not happy in the least bit.

As it was we were only going to be able to use Femara this cycle,

as I have to have one more failed attempt without injectables for insurance to cover them in the future.

And given that as of the first we have a huge deductible to meet again,

I was upset and pissed.

By now you would think I would know that anytime I try to plan things,

they end up going the completely opposite way.

I'm pretty sure God is trying to tell me no matter how hard I try to control everything,

I really have no control over anything. 

I'm learning. Slowly but surely.

Hopefully we can start our next cycle sometime in February. 

Maybe 2012 will be our year?