2012

I only have one hope for 2012...

Please make us parents. 

We have made the decision to try IVF this year.

It probably will not happen until a little later in the year. 

We need to save up some money first. 

So in that time I'm taking care of me in hopes of giving us the best chance possible at getting pregnant.

I'm going to stop being a lazy ass and take advantage of the gym here at our apartment complex.

I've got to do something good for myself, 

and I know losing some weight would really help.

I haven't talked about it in a long time, but I suffer from anxiety.

Sometimes it's really, really bad.

Like, I cannot function bad.

So, this week I have a Dr.'s appointment to get some help.

And meds.

I need to get this under control now and stop putting my body

through such extreme stress and panic attacks. 

I just really, really, really want to be a mom.

I'm willing to try anything to help my chances. 

If you have suggestions, please let me know!

And if this doesn't turn out to be our year to get pregnant,
at least I will know I've tried everything I can and given it our very best effort.