The Time Has Come..

I'm linking up with Blair at Heir to Blair and her McFatty Monday. I have said before that I have to lose my extra weight. I haven't really done anything about it. I know I have needed to lose the weight, I just haven't had any motivation to do it. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed of what I have become. I never had issues with my weight until about 4 years ago. I was always active, playing sports, working out and in overall great shape. And then it all changed. I met T, fell in love and just stopped caring. 

Well, last Friday I discovered that my doctor thinks I have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome), and a huge help in getting pregnant is losing weight and maintaining a healthy diet. UGH. But, this is finally this push I need to get my butt in gear. I want nothing more than to get pregnant and be a mother. And if cutting the crap out of my diet and getting my butt moving will help me in achieving that dream, I'm going to do it. 

Hopefully linking up each week with McFatty Monday will help to keep my butt in check and motivated. I don't really know where to start, so I am starting by cutting out the soda and fast food. This weekend I started making dinner (which is rare in our house) and I'm packing my lunches every day this week. My water intake is increasing, a lot. And I'm starting to work out. The girls and I will be going on walks at least 3 days a week and I'm going to start the 30 Day Shred. 

That's the plan. My long term goal is to lose 45 pounds. But for now, I would like to lose 25 lbs. by my birthday in June. I don't want to overwhelm myself, so that's a goal of 1 lb. a week. If I can do more than that, wonderful. But if not, at least I know I am making smarter choices. And hopefully in the process I will be blessed with a pregnancy!

Let It Snow

According to the news, Facebook and Twitter it is snowing everywhere but 

HERE.

Why oh why can I not wake up to a blanket of white snow outside my window?  Probably because I live in Southern California, where if the temps drop below 70 we all bundle up and act as though there is a blizzard right outside our door. 

I really don't think a little bit of snow is too much to ask for. It's has happened once before, can't it just happen one more time. Heaven forbid it actually look and feel like winter outside. 

Strange Addictions

This is my first time participating in Taylor's Top 2 on Tuesday. This week is top 2 strange addictions. 

1.Baby Clothes/Gear

This wouldn't be strange if I had kids, or was pregnant, but I'm not. (we are trying though) I have a HUGE pile of baby stuff already. I literally cannot help myself from buying things if they are a good deal. And I somehow seem to find amazing deals, without even having to search for them. Aside from the bucket of clothes I have I also have: a boppy (my boss gave it to me), a Svan bouncer, a sling, a Nook play mat, an old school pram from Germany and a few cloth diapers. I just like to think I will be really prepared when we do have kids, and I know I will have saved us tons of money!

2. Sleeping

My sleeping "routine" is a little nuts! I cannot have ANY light in the room, so I wear an eye mask every night. If I don't have an eye mask I will use a t-shirt or anything I can find to cover my eyes. I also have to have some white noise. I downloaded a white noise app for my iPhone, and I currently listen to a mix of a fire crackling and rain, it puts me right to sleep. And I have to have the ceiling fan on, and most nights I have the AC on, even in the middle of winter. There is just something about the cool air on my face. If AC isn't an option, I have to have a fan blowing directly on my face, but sleeping with the window open is not an option. 

New Look

My blog finally got a new look! And I love it! Erika over at Oops I Craft My Pants has started designing blogs, and she had a great deal I had to jump on. I really had no idea what I wanted, so I just told her what I like and this was what she came up with. I couldn't be happier. Thank you again Erika! 

If you are looking for a blog makeover I highly recommend her! And she is super sweet so that gets extra points in my book. 

Maybe now that my blog is cute I will start posting more.

Let's be honest, I probably won't. 

Progress

I guess you could say I am making progress in this journey of my thyroid and getting pregnant. I strongly believe (hope) the two are related.  

In December I finally saw an endocrinologist, who told me I needed to come back next month to do another round of blood work to finally diagnose me. Assuming my thyroid levels were still high, he would have diagnosed me with hypothyroidism and I would have started medication for it. 

As of Jan. 1st, I no longer have the same insurance, so I started the hunt for a new endo., and I found one. I have my first appointment next week. I'm hoping to finally get some answers. But, I have a feeling this appointment will call for more blood work, and then another appointment for a diagnosis.

I am hoping and praying that after this appointment it is only a matter of a few months until I am able to get pregnant. In a dream world I hope I am pregnant by June.  But this is a step, if only each step wasn't so dang expensive. 

"Changes"

This year I'm not making resolutions, I'm making changes. Lots and lots of changes. The changes that will occur in 2011 are:

Creating a relationship with God - spending time in the word, finding a home church, and really putting my trust in God. 

Cooking - I hate to cook. If dishes would clean themselves, I would cook every night. But they don't. I am ashamed of how much T and I eat out. So this year, we are saving the money and the weight gain and I am forcing myself to start cooking.

Exercising - Growing up I was really active, always playing sports. I can't believe I have allowed myself to get to the state I'm in. It's time to get active again. 

Taking care of myself - I need to start doing something for me, even just once a month. Nothing huge, a pedicure will work just fine. 

S*^@, $uc&, @#%$ - I have the mouth of a sailor, and it needs to stop. This is the year I will decrease the number of F-bombs I drop.