Saturday, January 26, 2013


We have been living here in Texas for almost a year and a half now.
I have to say, I really do love the people here. 
We have made some amazing, life long friends. 
We have added two wonderful dogs to our family.
Travis finally got a much deserved promotion. 
Texas has been great to us. 
And I can't wait to leave!

Living here, away from family has really put a lot of things into perspective for me.
I always knew I was close with my family, but never
truly realized how much I would miss them until we moved. 
A big part of moving here was because it was that dream that we would be
better off financially, and be able to "live the dream". 
The idea was we would be able to afford for me to stay home once 
we had kids, and be able to purchase a house, and fly home 
when I needed to see my family and friends. 
But that's how it works, it's always "supposed" to be a certain way. 
I can tell you, it hasn't been a single one of those things. 

But what moving here has given me is time to think about what is really 
important to me. What do I REALLY want?
What I really want, isn't a beautiful big house, it is a comfortable
place to call home within driving distance of my sister and parents. 
And if having to work after having kids is what has to happen, so be it. 
I grew up living very close to my grandparents, and seeing them all the time.
I always dreamed of having the same thing for my children one day.
That simply isn't going to happen living this far away.
I want my kids to grow up near their cousins and my friends kids. 
I want to be around when my first niece or nephew is born. 
Or when something exciting happens, to be close enough to celebrate.
I want to be able to meet Kim for margaritas and happy hour on Friday evenings,
and spend a few hours with the girls more than twice a year.
I want to be able to sit with my parents in their backyard chatting the afternoon away.
I want to take the dogs to the beach! 

I have realized those are the things that mean the most to me.
And those things are all back in California,
where I long to be. 
I will never look back on this decision to move to Texas as a mistake. 
It has shown me what I want and what is important. 
Sometimes you just need a change of scenery to make you realize
everything you ever wanted was right there in front of you all along. 
And while life there wasn't what you hoped and dreamed it would be,
it was actually much better. 

Hoping and praying we will be back in California by the end of 2013!

1 comment:

  1. I feel ya. We moved to Northwest Arkansas in 2006 for my husbands job. I always thought we'd stay here, and don't get me wrong, I am happy here. My kids are happy here, but I want to go home. Texas is my home. I miss my family, friends, and everything that has to do with Texas. It would be different if I didn't have kids, but since we do, I want my kids to be around my family more. Their cousins more. I just miss home. :) We plan on moving back this summer, and I am super excited!!

    Hang in there. Hopefully you'll be home soon. xo


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