callie

Meet our darling little girl Callie!

We adopted her last Sunday, and I could not love this girl more! 

She is the sweetest dog ever.

I cannot for the lift of me figure out why she was the shelter for so long.

But, I'm not complaining because we got her.

The shelter is guessing she is around 3 years old.

They are also guessing she is a collie mix..maybe shepherd.

One thing is for sure though, she is such a love.

We have been working on some serious separation anxiety. 

Any time we are out of her view she starts crying and barking.

But aside from that, she is perfect.

Yesterday and today I took her to doggie day care since Travis and I were

both working all day. She had the best time ever.

When Travis picked her up yesterday she hopped in the back seat and

immediately feel right to sleep. 

I may have asked Travis if I could stop working and just 

stay home with her all day. I'm already turning into one of those dog owners! 

Sale! Sale! Sale!

Not sure if I have mentioned it here but Travis 

and I are moving to a new apartment in about 6 weeks. 

We are downsizing a little bit (it can't get too much smaller)

so I have a few things I would love to sell before we move. 

I though I would ask you lovely blogger friends of mine if you were interested 

in any of my stuff! Let the shopping commence.

**Warning: you are about to see how crazy I am. try not to judge!**

 {Prices do not include shipping}

{Silhouette SD, used twice. Asking $120}SOLD!

 

{Puj Tub, never used. Asking $15}

  

 

{Cybex Aton infant car seat. NEVER used. Asking $125}

 (Folds up nice and small and has carry handle)

{Nook LilyPad Playmat, never used. Asking $50}

 

  

 {SwaddleMe's, Size S. Never used. $10 for both} SOLD

 

{Aden & Anais for Target Sleeping Bag, Size S. Never used. $10}SOLD

 

{Aden & Anais for Target Sleeping Bag, Size M. Never used. $10} SOLD

 

{Peanut Shell Baby Sling, size M. Never used. $15}

 

{Dwell for Target baby blanket. Never used. $5} SOLD

 

{Carters Sleeping Bag, size 0-9 months. Never used. $5}

 

{Carters Dress and Sweater. Size 6 mo. $8} SOLD

 

{Dwell Dress, size 6 mo. Never worn. $5} SOLD

 

{Carters Romper, size 6 mo. Never worn. $3} SOLD

 

{Gap Faux Fur Pea Coat, size 0-6 mo. Never worn.$15} SOLD

If you have any questions feel free to ask or email me. 

And if you see something you want, leave it in a comment or email me!

Thanks

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Seriously. 

Thank you for all the comments and emails full of love and support.

I hate that so many of you have been here or are here

experiencing this same awful feelings. 

While I would never wish infertility on anyone, 

those who have dealt with it tend to have the most caring and compassionate hearts.

And for that, I am so thankful for each and every one of you.

It's a little crazy how people I don't really "know"

have been able to offer me some of the best support I've received. 

I am just so thankful for all your support.

It gives me so much hope. 

For those of you in the middle of your journey with this bitch called Infertility,

I hope and pray you are holding a baby of your own soon. 

Tonight I went to visit my friend who just had a baby two days ago.

She was still in the hospital. 

I have to say, it was really hard. 

But I'm positive one day it will be me enjoying my newborn in my arms. 

 

The One Where I Lose It

Warning: If you don't want to hear me bitch and moan

leave now. 

I'm losing it.

I just want to be pregnant already.

I don't understand why we are having to go through this.

I don't know why God had to make this part of our plan.

I can't for the life of me figure out why single girls who go out and party

and drink the night away and have been dating a guy for 5 minutes 

are pregnant. Must be nice. 

I "know" God has a plan, but I'm tired of waiting to hear what it is.

I'm frustrated.

I'm sick of reading pregnancy announcement after pregnancy announcement.

I hate that so many of my friends are done having kids, and we 

haven't even started the journey.

I hate the insane amount of bills that come along with us wanting a child.

I hate not having IVF coverage. 

I hate stressing out about how we are going to pay for all of this.

And what happens when we want a second child, and we are

still paying off the loans to get pregnant with our first? 

It's not fair.

Nobody should have to look into financing in hopes of getting pregnant.

I'm so jealous of people who decide to do IVF and the next day are at the RE

making an appointment and setting it all up. 

I'm jealous of people who are pregnant.

Jealous of people with a baby.

Jealous that I wasn't an irresponsible 20 year old who got knocked up. 

At least my body worked back then.

 

I'm angry. 

Angry at my body. Angry at myself. Angry at God.

Angry at people who make stupid comments.

Angry that we have to go through this.

Angry that we have no idea when, or if ever that we will be parents.

Angry that I don't have a better job that would allow us to be in a 

better position financially to afford IVF. 

I'm tired of this emotional journey.

I'm tired of getting my hopes up every month. 

Tired of getting two lines one day, and none the next.

Tired of dreaming of holding my own child in my arms.

 I'm tried of praying every night that a miracle happens, only to be disappointed.

Tired of stressing.

I JUST WANT A BABY ALREADY.

Why is that too much to ask for?

I refuse to give up on this journey. But damn does it suck more than anything.

 

 

 

 

 

A Little Trip to Austin

Yesterday Travis and I took a little trip down to Austin.

The main reason behind the trip was to to a Love Light session

with the insanely talented Lyndsay at Life In Motion Photography.

Since the photo's were late in the evening we figured we would 

just make a weekend of and it get a hotel room for Saturday night.

We packed up and headed down around 11am.

I had a hair and makeup appointment late in the afternoon.

So we just took our time driving, rocking out 

to music and chatting. It was a nice 3.5 hour drive.

Made a stop at Bailey Banks & Biddle.

DAMN! 

I picked out my new ring. You know, when we hit the lottery. 

Then we headed to the hotel to relax for a little bit and get ready for our pictures.

 Modeling a lovely fanny pack

 

These made their way to my Christmas list.

I booked the room on Hot.wire. My sister and parents have both done this

and scored incredible deals at super nice hotels.

I figured we would give it a try.

I tend to be rather snobby with hotels, but since we were on a budget

I thought 3.5 stars would be good enough. 

Heck, on another popular hotel site it get's 4.5 stars. 

Well, pulling up to the place I knew this was NOT a 3.5 star hotel. 

More like 1.5 stars...if that. 

Pulling in the parking lot there had to have been at least 25 signs 

stating they were not responsible for your car being broken into. Awesome.

Another 15-20 signs stating hide your belongings and lock your car. Rad.

And then one sign stating they videotaped every license plate that drove it. Stellar.

We checked in, went to our room and I wanted to vomit. 

It was just disgusting. 

Had we not still had to finish getting ready for pictures I wouldn't have bothered checking in.

We got ready and as we were heading down to leave decided 

we were going to take the pictures, come back pack up and drive back home.

So that's what we did! 

We left Austin around 11:30 pm.

Stopped in West, Texas around 1am for kolache's for my pregnant friend who LOVES them!

And we made it home around 2:30 this morning. 

 

Best kolache's ever. Mixed berry is my fav!

All in all, it was a great trip. 

I cannot wait to see how the pictures turned out. 

And one final note, don't trust Hot.wire.

That Whole Getting Pregnant Thing

April was the last time we did anything medically 

in an attempt to get pregnant. 

Ever since we have just been living life.

Don't get me wrong, not for one second did I stop thinking 

about the next time we could start really trying again.

I thought I was doing okay at accepting that we financially had to 

take some time off. Haha

That is until friends starting announcing their pregnancies.

And then all the pain came flying right back.

Clearly, I was not doing as well as I thought. 

I just can't sit here and be doing nothing.

I needed to at least have a plan.

So last week Travis and I sat down and discussed where we were going from here.

We have made the decision we are going to go forward and try IVF.

Ideally it would happen in November. 

We are moving in October and I just know the stress isn't going to do

anything to help, so I want get the move out of the way.

We haven't talked to my RE about it yet, although 

I do know he suggested IVF should our last IUI not be successful. 

The plan is to make an appointment in the next few weeks to 

talk to our RE about our decision and where we go from here. 

We are praying this works. 

Any thoughts and prayers you could send our way would be much appreciated.

Hopefully next year at this time I am blogging about my pregnancy

and not the crap that is infertility!