Year In Review

2010 has been a wonderful year! But I have to say, I can't wait to see what 2011 has in store. I'm a terrible blogger, so here is a recap of 2010!

January

The month started with wedding prep stress and ended with the best day of my life, marrying the man I love. 

February

Spent the first week of the month on a cruise for our honeymoon. We had a wonderful time. Came home and moved in together. Talk about an adjustment! I think we made it a few days before our first big fight! 

March

Threw a baby shower for my  friend Ambre who was awaiting the arrival of her little girl. Started peeing on tests to see if I was pregnant, only to be greeted with negative results. Talk about fun!

April

Again, nothing exciting. More negative pregnancy tests. 

May

I was with my friend Ambre as she welcomed her daughter Cambria into the world. Such an incredible experience. 

June

Celebrated my 27th birthday! Went to Palm Springs for a weekend with my family! More negative pregnancy tests.  Finally got to quit my job as a restaurant server after far too many years. I started nannying for 4 month old twins. Best. Job. Ever.

July

T and I took a trip to Texas for a week to visit his family and check out the area. We hadn't been out there in a while, and I had never spent more than 3 days there. We found our dream house, and we were on the verge of trying to buy it. I freaked out about moving away from my family and we decided not to make the move.

August

I don't think anything exciting happened. Just more negative pregnancy tests and disappointment. 

September

Celebrated my mom's birthday. Bought T a new truck. 

October

Celebrated my sister's birthday with a Halloween themed party. Bought myself a new car!

November

Celebrated my dad's birthday and Thanksgiving with my family. Thought maybe, just maybe I would get a positive pregnancy test. I got my period on Thanksgiving day. I wasn't so thankful.

December

Celebrated T's birthday, and our 1st married Christmas! Both were wonderful! Thought again I may get a positive pregnancy test; negative tests, but still no period. This may be worse than getting a period. 

I'm hoping 2011 brings a baby into our lives, and more adventure so next year my "year in review" isn't so boring! Happy New Year, may God bless you and your family in the coming year. 

Christmas Recap

Christmas this year was fantastic! 

T and I drove up to my parents Christmas Eve to surprise my mom. She was having a rough time dealing with her first Christmas without any "kids" in the house. She was so excited when she got home and saw us there. But before we went up there we had our own Christmas, just the two of us. He did a pretty good job, I must say. I was a little worried, as the first two gifts I opened were a car charger for my iphone and a travel coffee mug. (I don't drink coffee!) But he redeemed himself when I opened The Pioneer Woman's cookbook and a pair of Toms! I LOVE them both!

Christmas morning my sister and her hubby came over and so did my Grams. We all celebrated Christmas together, and it was lovely! My parents got me a Silhouette! I was so excited because I really wanted one but didn't think I would actually be getting it! I have so many projects planned. My sister gave me a gift card to Silhouette so I can buy more supplies. 

The rest of the day was spent eating, drinking and hanging out with my family. It was the perfect Christmas. I just feel like it flew by this year though. I can't believe how fast this past year has gone. I remember last Christmas like it was yesterday, so I can't believe this Christmas is already gone. I'm already looking forward to Christmas next year. And I'm hoping there will be a baby around to add to the excitement of the season!

Another Day, Another Announcement

You know how when you want something really bad it seems as if everyone around you is getting that very thing your heart is set on. 

Ya, that's my life right now. 

If I see one more pregnancy announcement I just might scream.

It seems as though every day another person is making their announcement on facebook. I know it sounds selfish, and it probably is selfish. I am happy for these people. But I just don't understand why this is so hard for us. Why does it seem as though everyone else I know simply says the word baby, and next thing you know they are knocked up. 

We have been trying for 11 months. I know, it's not that long. I know many couples try for years and years. I don't know how these people do it. I assume it's like everything else in life, they don't have a choice. You just deal with it and get through it. 

I feel like every day seems to get harder and harder. 

And my favorite is when people say "it will happen". REALLY. Do you KNOW for a fact it will happen? NO, you don't. Do you  know what it is like to try and try and try and month after month you get a negative test. If you do know what that's like, you wouldn't be saying "it will happen". I know people just mean well, but it doesn't help. I know there are people who want to strangle me because I am frustrated with trying for "only" 11 months. 

Sorry this post is so long. I'm just hurting and don't know how to deal with it. 

Special Time of Year

I love Christmas!

 I love everything about it; the sights, the lights, the smells, and the overall giving spirit of the holiday. Christmas has always been my favorite holiday. As I get older, it seems to just get better and better. Not because I get better gifts, but because there is just so much meaning behind this time of year.

Growing up my parents always instilled in us the real reason for Christmas, the birth of Jesus Christ. They also always made sure we knew the reason of Christmas was not for presents, but to try and help others less fortunate than us. As I have gotten older, this becomes more and more true for me. In the past few years there are very few things I have wanted for Christmas, and I would prefer money spent of gifts go to help others.

This year, like many years in the past, my family "adopted" a family at a local church. This was the first year I have had a steady job with a steady income and was really able to participate. The little boy we adopted is 6 years old.I cannot tell you the smile I had on my face while shopping for him, and knowing we were helping his family. There is no greater job (at least not at this point in my life, I'm sure once we have children this will change) than being able to help others. My heart is so full this year. I hope this little boy and his mom have an amazing Christmas. I know that even if I have not one gift under the tree this year, I would still be completely fulfilled. This is what Christmas is all about. No amount of gifts will ever give me the fulfillment helping others does.

All I Want For Christmas...

...Is a positive pregnancy test in 2011! I promise I will be a good girl next year and I won't ask for anything else.