Time For a Breakdown

Today the sh*t has hit the fan in terms of my emotions. All these cute kids in their costumes has been a constant reminder that I'm not pregnant. Today has really sucked. Every time I see a kid I start to cry. All I want is to be pregnant.

Then tonight my dad tells me, "I want you guys to have twins". Well dad, I would just be thrilled to get pregnant at all.

I'm a mess tonight. This blows. I'm certain God is trying to teach me patience, and I don't seem to learning a single thing.

Fall

I am loving fall this year. I was so ready for pumpkins, the leaves changing colors, apple cinnamon candles, sweaters, soups and pumpkin chocolate chip cookies! OH, and my all time favorite, Starbucks hot chocolate with 2 pumps of pumpkin spice! Try it, I swear it's much better than it sounds.







Last year at this time T and I took our engagement pictures, and I just love them. My sister took them for us. Everyone here in So Cal takes their pics at the beach. We wanted something different. I just love them and they make me think of fall and all the beauty it brings.

So Blessed

Last week the family I nanny for put the girls car seats in my car. It was not a good situation. I drove a Honda Element and because the door open "suicide" style and the seats sit behind the car doors it was literally impossible to get the girls in the car. I had to go through the "trunk", pull each seat down, put the girls in and then put the seats back up. I would have to do this 4 times on an outing with just one stop. I DON'T THINK SO. At first I thought it would be fine, and then I started driving home and quickly realized I couldn't see out over my right shoulder because the car seats sit up so high, the seats in the Element are stadium style so they sit higher. This car was NOT made for people with small kids. I was so bummed because when I bought this car two years ago thinking it would be a great car for kids. I was SO wrong.



I told T the issue and he said we could go car shopping. We spent Friday night and Saturday night shopping. I test drove a 4Runner, Traverse and a Highlander. I fell in love with the Highlander. It was slightly out of our price range, but we fought hard and felt comfortable with our monthly payment. I told T it was up to him, as he is the bread winner in our house. There were many things that fell into place that allowed us to afford this car. I now realize why God didn't allow for other things to work out the past month. He had a plan! This was just another reminder that I need to quit trying to plan our life, because God is in control, not me.



Here is my new baby...and I couldn't love her any more! Now I can't wait to fill it with babies of our own!!