25 Is Almost Over

I am two days away from my 26Th birthday. I don't know why, but it is a rather strange feeling. I feel like I automatically pass into my "late 20's" on Thursday. Headed into 26 I am not even close to where I thought I would be in life. I always though I would be married, have a career, a cute little home, and at least one child, and possibly another on the way. The reality is, an engagement **may** be in the near future, but I'm not holding my breath. As far as a career, I have no idea what I want to do. From one day to the next I have different ideas of what would make me happy for the rest of my life, or at least the next few years. As you all know, I don't have any children, let alone am I preparing to welcome a second!

The strangest part of all, is that in the past few weeks I have been at total peace with where I am in life. I'm not always the happiest, peppiest person, but I am happy. I have met the man I will spend the rest of my life with (if he ever decides to propose!). I have discovered that while often times I am very lonely, I really enjoy my nights just me, Pandora, and crafting websites or my new sewing machine. I know once I get married and have kiddos, all this free time will be long gone. So, I might as well enjoy it now. While I do hate my job, I really do, I don't know what I want to do. I have several ideas, but I just can't quite pinpoint one. That is the one area of my life I really do wish I could change. I look at my sister, and she knows and is doing exactly what she wants to do. I wish I had that, but I know one day I will discover what God has put me on the Earth to do.

I am looking forward to 26. Hopefully it will bring a marriage proposal with it, but as long as I can learn to deal with my anxiety, give all my cares and problems to God, and just enjoy each and every day I have, I will have made great progress in my life. I am no longer gaging my accomplishments in life by what I do or do not have, there are far more important things; like peace of mind, a great relationship with God, and amazing relationships with family and friends.