Year Two

Two years ago yesterday Travis and I were busy

taking vows and promising love and support for the rest of our lives. 

I know that day we didn't realize how much love and support we 

would have to offer each other the second year into our marriage.

This past year was definitely harder than the first.

It brought many, many tears, frustrations and heartache.

There were days filled with smiles,

but those days were few and far between.

I used to always tell people I knew Travis was "the one"

because there was nobody else I would rather experience the tough times in life with.

This past year of marriage made me realize he really is the one for me.

I'm so thankful to spend the tough and shitty days of life

 with the guy I love. 

Randoms

Just a bunch of random thoughts and happenings.

~ I finally called our insurance co. to see about IVF coverage and whether we had to try

X,Y, and Z before we could try IVF. Turns out, we don't have a dime of coverage for IVF.

I was stunned. When we met with our first RE they went over our coverage, and we were told

we had $20k for IVF. Looks as though it's only for A.I. 

We are going to continue trying IUI and try to save some money along the way for IVF.

~ I started taking Zoloft two weeks ago. It's life changing. Amazing. 

I love the new person I am. I wish I had done this years ago. 

I honestly cannot believe how much it has helped my anxiety in such a short time frame,

and how much I am enjoying life again. 

Travis keeps commenting what an entirely different person I am. 

It's a good thing! 

~ We are headed to California in a few weeks and we both cannot wait! 

The girls are turning 2, and I wouldn't miss their birthday for anything. I am so excited to see them!

It will be so nice to spend so much time with family and friends.
I don't think I'm going to want to leave. 

~ A few weeks after we get back from California Kim is flying out here to visit me for a weekend.

I am beyond excited! 

But now I am in a rush to make our little apartment look pulled together and finish 

the decorating I've been working on since we moved in. 

Hopefully it will look decent by the time she gets here.

~ I'm torn between switching to a new RE. The guy we see now has a fantastic reputation, 

and comes highly recommended. However, I didn't see him a single time during our last cycle. With our first RE I saw her every single appointment. Also, the office infuriates me. A) You don't get to schedule your own appointment, they just tell you when you are coming in. B) They don't open until 8 am and close at  4pm. Then Wednesdays they close at noon. Even just for a monitoring appointment I can get anything earlier than 8am. And finally, they want to see you ALL THE FRIGGIN' TIME. 

I had 9 appointments in a span of 20 days last cycle.

I understand I have to be monitored, but I certainly didn't have that many appointments with our last RE. 

And the fact that they don't accommodate appointments around my schedule doesn't help. 

Do I leave a great RE because of this, or am I just being dramatic? 

I think I was so spoiled by Dr. Morales and expect nothing less now.

That's all for now. Hope you are having a great start to 2012!