Kellys Korner

For the past several months I have been reading Kelly's Korner blog. Every week she has done a "home tour" which I could never participate in, since I don't have a home just yet! This week was "Show Your Wedding Gown", but for those single ladies, you can show your dream gown. Therefor, I am participating this week!!!! As most of you know, I am wishing, hoping and praying that an engagement is coming soon. And at this point, I have fairly good reason to believe it is coming soon. (Picking out the ring and knowing it is purchased is usually enough, right??) So, without further ado, here are my dream gowns!


Lela Rose


Alvina Valenta

But if money were no option, this would hands down be my gown!

Insanity

Maybe I am just highly out of touch with reality, however I find if amazing that people sell their previously worn wedding gowns, for thousands of dollars. Now, don't get me wrong, I can see the value and beauty in a Monique Lhuillier, Vera Wang, Reem Acra, Lela Rose, or Kenneth Pool gown, I simply cannot see spending $3500 on a dress that is tailored to someone else's body. What is even more crazy is the person selling their pre worn Monique Lhuillier gown for $6300, when they paid $7000. Really? All you could do was discount it $700?! Is this a joke?

Maybe I am just the crazy one for thinking one day I might find an actual deal on the Monique Lhuillier or Vera Wang of my dreams. A girl can dream, right? In the meantime I wil continue going crazy when I see the prices of these gowns...that have already been worn.


Vera Wang


Monique Lhuillier (I have been lusting after this dress for 3 years)


Melissa Sweet

Family Time

Back in June my cousin Bryan got married. The wedding was beautiful! It was up in the hills in Burbank,and the ceremony was in this cool little courtyard. Meaghan (the bride) looked beautiful, and she was so happy the whole day! We also got to see my cousin Kim who just had her second daughter about 4 weeks earlier. Mallory is so cute and tiny, and she slept the entire night. Our whole table passed her from person to person holding her, and not one single time did she fuss. Here are some pictures from the night! It was a great time, congrats again Bryan and Meaghan.


My sister, cousin and I in the photo booth they had


Mallory and I (I was in heaven)


The whole family


Mallory and me again..I could have held her all night, I even considered sneaking out the side door with her!

Help is on the way

I start seeing a therapist on Tuesday, and I am so excited. I doubt many people say that, but I am! I have never had a problem talking about the fact that I have seen several therapist's in my life, and I think they are amazing. So, the fact that my job is paying for me to go is even better. I am really hoping I connect with my new therapist and she can help me deal with my many issues. I am looking foward to getting a new perspective on what I have been dealing with and really help me. I am so tired of being depressed, and dealing with anxiety and paranoia. I haven't really talked to many people about what is going on in my life, if you are intersted, feel free to ask. I just don't like bombarding people with my craziness!

Anyhoo, I am praying that my depression will let up soon. It has been really bad lately, and I am over-analyzing everything in my life, which just leads to more depression. About a week ago Travis and I went to Sea World for the day. It was the first time in a really long time that I went a whole day without getting depressed or upset. I just had a great, amazing day that day. I enjoyed life and all the small things. I want every day to be like that day. I know Travis wishes I was like that every day too.

I could use some change... a new outlook on life would be a great start. I don't really know where I am going with this post, other than to say, if you wonder why I have been extra crazy lately, dont fret, help is on the way!

Gettin' Crafty

For my birthday this year my mom bought me a sewing machine. I was thrilled! Immediately I wanted to start creating things, yet I quickly found out I am not the best sewer in the land. But, I do truly love sewing, and it keeps me busy and out of trouble! Basically all I can sew are burp cloths and bibs at the moment, but I am trying to get better and move on to more difficult projects. I have a dress pattern I am dying to try, I just haven't found the perfect fabric for it yet. So, it sit's, waiting to be created. Here are some pictures of my projects! And since I don't have any kiddos, and these are just sitting around, if you want any let me know and I will send them to you!


The bib I made, I ironed it after I took this picture!


Burpcloths


More burpcloths


My favorite!



My other favorite! You can't see it but the other side is black and white damask.


Little washcloths I made

25 Is Almost Over

I am two days away from my 26Th birthday. I don't know why, but it is a rather strange feeling. I feel like I automatically pass into my "late 20's" on Thursday. Headed into 26 I am not even close to where I thought I would be in life. I always though I would be married, have a career, a cute little home, and at least one child, and possibly another on the way. The reality is, an engagement **may** be in the near future, but I'm not holding my breath. As far as a career, I have no idea what I want to do. From one day to the next I have different ideas of what would make me happy for the rest of my life, or at least the next few years. As you all know, I don't have any children, let alone am I preparing to welcome a second!

The strangest part of all, is that in the past few weeks I have been at total peace with where I am in life. I'm not always the happiest, peppiest person, but I am happy. I have met the man I will spend the rest of my life with (if he ever decides to propose!). I have discovered that while often times I am very lonely, I really enjoy my nights just me, Pandora, and crafting websites or my new sewing machine. I know once I get married and have kiddos, all this free time will be long gone. So, I might as well enjoy it now. While I do hate my job, I really do, I don't know what I want to do. I have several ideas, but I just can't quite pinpoint one. That is the one area of my life I really do wish I could change. I look at my sister, and she knows and is doing exactly what she wants to do. I wish I had that, but I know one day I will discover what God has put me on the Earth to do.

I am looking forward to 26. Hopefully it will bring a marriage proposal with it, but as long as I can learn to deal with my anxiety, give all my cares and problems to God, and just enjoy each and every day I have, I will have made great progress in my life. I am no longer gaging my accomplishments in life by what I do or do not have, there are far more important things; like peace of mind, a great relationship with God, and amazing relationships with family and friends.